Monday, January 26, 2009

Get Ready because here I come.

Hey all it's been awhile since I last blogged. What has been going on in my world? Well work is super boring. It's starting to get annoying.
School has started.
 My first class was Math
As most of you know, I am not a big fan of math. I hate Math... it's horrible. I am doing okay in it right now.
Then I have Family Cultural and Ethnic Diversity.
The teacher is super energetic. Which I really like. Plus in the first class we watched an episode of the office which I freaking love. We shall see how these classes go.
Then  I had parent adolescence relationships. It was interesting.  The teacher is a snooze. Were watching a video about the brain tomorrow.
Then English is boring- basically with Mr. Garrison. So funny.
Courtship and Marriage is funny- it's with FEY so it's usually pretty amusing. Plus its my last class of the day.

In other news. The redheaded boy  and I are taking things slow. God only knows whats going on in his brian. But Ia m okay with taking things slow. Good things come to those who wait.
He's been sick. :(
 I also have been wondering why he keeps thinkings I would drop him. he says something along the lines of do you know how many guys would want to date you? I  figure if I am with him. that's what counts. I am not into cheating. But thats me.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I am sick. WTF.

Okay I never get sick. Minus my Crohns. And I get sick. Partially because of taking care of the boy. Partially because I fucking am sick- and kids at work are getting sick.
I am exhausted.

I have watched -
Because I Said So
American Teen

Later I am watching 
And Shawshank Redemption.
and pineapple express.


Sunday, January 11, 2009

More Than A Feeling.

So the wonderful world of me is confusing. I usually am super fucking confident. Fucking badass. I know what I want and how to get it.
Just not as of lately. 
I am a big mess of confusion.
I am starting to trust someone. Yeah it took a few months. But I am. It scares the living shit out of me.
I have never been one to trust... EVER. 
Especially after the whole jewdouche  incident and his snagglenosed bitch expelling my secret that no one really needed to know about.
I dont get jealous. And I am fucking jealous- and it's over nothing.
I feel like screaming into a pillow and beating up people.

I don't get crushes. I don't hold shit in and what am I doing?
And why the fuck do I feel like I have connection with someone- and I can't think of what that connection is minus
-family life
- dead baby jokes
- friends.
- and he's a dynamite kisser.
- kind of gets why life just sucks sometimes
- isn't a little bitch about my stomach
- and he listens. it's nice. it's not even rude.
- plus the sarcasm is a turn on.

And why the fuck am I still rambling.
In other news. 
Crohns and colitis walk 4-18-09
go to it. Not relay for life. they fucking suck.

K thanks

I keep wanting to say I am happy in this spot. i just keep getting more and more confused with things.I hate that.

Maybe I want something more. 
But that wont happen knowing him.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

I am a fierce bitch.

So like normal I am good house wife. I made chicken and noodles last night. Got drunk. Spilled my stupid pathetic feelings out. True story.
Okay let me begin where it all started. So that guy the one who bought the necklace- I was making him dinner. He has made me dinner twice. So I thought. Who doesn't love homemade chicken and noodles. They are really that good. And Brian said, he was bored. So I let him come over. STUPID MISTAKE. Let me get into who Brian is- Brian is a gay black guy that is crazy. So crazy he broke into my apartment. So lame.
And then it turned into a party. This guy, garrett, lori, kim, and heather along with brian came over.
I got jealous over the guy who bought a necklace. Which all brought some shit out. I decided- hey lets get drunk.
And drunk did I get.
Everyone slowly left minus Garrett. He kind of came onto me. But I kicked everyone out. And who was at my door...
Nothing else but Jordan! He needed helped. I was drunk and was a bitch I feel bad about that. But I wanted to fix some problems with the necklace boy.
I ended up talking to his friend, lets call him sprouts boy. He basically told me we were both afraid of a relationship.
We ended up talking about what we wanted. It was refreshing. A healthy kind of talk. I like those. Although I was trashed.
So I wake up. And go back to my apartment to brian at my apartment in boy short blaring club music. AFTER HE BROKE INTO MY HOUSE.

I really am confused and don't know what to do. I like necklace boy and i get that we both should wait to trust each other because fuck we all know I have trust issues. But I really think something good could come out of it.

Best wishes. And a damn happy new year.

I had one. And an amazing new years kiss.