Monday, December 22, 2008

omnia causa fiunt

My title- omnia causa fiunt. <~ That's in Latin.Everything happens for a reason.. well atleast thats what it is in English.
I have been a big believer in this motto for a long time.
But I have been at a crossroads at what I want.
There is this guy-.. ( yeah there is always a guy)
I have been hanging out with him for a few weeks well since around Halloween. Things started out slow just kind of hanging out. Goofing around picking on each other.
My friend, Danielle noticed it first. We were at Tyler's party. He kept touching me, picked me up when he hugged me. My friend, Kim said- This isn't dirty dancing. Do not put Jill in a corner.
Let me back up- and describe him a bit.
6'2 Red hair. Green eyes. Charming as hell. Smart as hell. I haven't ever been able to have a conversation with a man about Thoreau in years( or well since junior year in high school english when we were talking about it.).Well minus Sena but he doesn't count.( No offense.) Has decent taste in movies- or well ones I like. And reads as much as I do- if not more.
He does cute things. Never really had that experience. It's nice. I enjoy it.

But of course there is something I am afraid of. Before I dive in head first.
My friend, liked him. I suppose alot. She got out of a relationship- they kind of dated kind of not.
I kind of feel like I am stuck there.
I have no idea where the hell I am in with all of this.
The most of an answer is- from his friend, Luke," You know, you make him happy- right?"
Which is nice to hear. It's even nicer to know I feel the same way.
But really. What am I to do?
With this kid- I actually want to learn more- and tell him things about me. Which I don't ever want to do with people. Hello I write in a blog. I don't tell everyone my stories. I think thats kind of a sign.
Hopefully something good would happen. I need it.
Love is an attempt to change a piece of a dream-world into reality.- Thoreau

1 comment:

Peanut Marie said...

Hey you

Do what makes you happy

Just be careful...he's a charmer and I could definitely see him pulling an "Andy" on you if you get what I mean.

I am here for hard feelings <3